once loved very hard to forget

its been almost 1 year already but i find tat its almost impossible for me to forget her..eventhough all my close friends told me tat she is not a gud girl and not suitable and using me only..i still dunno y i still like her..i did try to fall in luv wif other girls but they do not giv me the same feeling..most of my frens tinks tat i like her juz bcoz she is pretty..but its not the truth..i juz cant explain to them wat i like about her..for tis 1 whole year i keep on telling my friends tat i already forget about her but recently when i saw her with other guys i juz tink tat y she can b nice to other guys but cool towards me,..she was once very close to me during a year ago but tat time is bcoz she is using me only..after tat she seldom contact me..she only contact me when she nids my help with assingment or help her to do homework..i dunno y i still like her eventhough i noe tat she will juz hurt me.am i an idiot?

confused

yesterday she sms me and tell me tat she is sick..y would she tell me neh?am i any1 to her?sumtimes i dunno i shud trust her anot..she alwiz says tat we r gud frens..but i only feel tat she is my gud fren when she nids my help tat time..at other times i feel tat she like dunno me oso..strating to feel confuse but i noe tat i cant trust her 100%..i can juz hope tat she is not using me anymore..i really wanted to trust her..but if she do like tat again i have nothing to say liao..juz can blame myself for being stupid..tats all for today bye bye..

FiNiSH aT LaST

today at last finished the photo session..feel so relieved..today chat wif my cousin bro..he is still very hensem la..im glad he got gf edi..as for me still lame and unwanted...haiz y tis happen to me..tired dy..bye

MoNDaY iS THe WoRST DaY

as usual i went to skul today...today quite happy coz i din fell asleep when the history teacher is teaching...then during recess i saw 1 of the leng lui in my skul smiling wif my heng tai..hehe..at last he got chance to get gf loo...then today got a bit tak syok coz now only i realize tat got sum people kenot be praised 1..after they get praised they will be egoistic..they really think tat they dam hensem and dam gud and elithing and when u advise them they will feel tat ur jealous..wat kin of people is tis?tats all for today coz tmr nid to study for stupid pp quiz..hope tat i can score...tata ^_^

meaningless life...

my life is so meaningless...today play dota oso all lose...today afternoon c my boss wif his gf so happy i oso feel like im so useless...i alwiz fail to find my girl..i never noe the feeling of paktoh...i really hope tat 1 day my dream girl will appear...its all up to god as they say...wat to do?...tmr skul again..skul is the place tat i hate the most coz it is full of stupid prefects..they tink tat they r dam perfect..their hair is short so they jealous wif our hair and alwiz catch us..the ketua perempuan tat day in front of the fierce guy complaun my hair...so idiotic..anyway hope tat eli1 happy..and a small reminder..any1 tat mess wif my frens means messing wif me.

NiCe DaY..

WoW ToDaY PLaY BaSKeTBaLL i BLoCK ThE So CaLL iPoH HaNDS BaLL 5 TiMeS..ReaLLY SYoK la..BuT QuiTe BoRiNG DuRiNG THe aFTeRNooN CoZ NoThiNG To Do..MY BoSS oSo WeNT PeNaNG oRedi..aT NiTe oSo No PoiNT..BuT ToDaY i KeeP oN TiNKiNG BouT WaT i NiD iN MY LiFe..CaN aNY1 TeLL Me...

FRieNDs R iMPoRTaNt

i JuZ yum cha wif my old fren keang keat..haha we so long din c dy but still can talk a lot of things..my gud fren ah tham say tat he insaf oredi woh..dunno he can insaf how long loh..haiz as for me dunno y the girls at my skul alwiz think tat i got pikat girls 1..they tink i am god meh...sumtimes really sick and tired la..zzzz

STiLL aLiVe

Hi.. im still glad tat im still "aLiVeD today aFteR tis week..today juz a boring skul day..but karu's lesson was quite fun..after skul i went play dota again and kill sum noobs,,,after tat boring tuisyen...andy so sad coz kenot sit wif grace haha..then tonite goin out yum cha wif my old fren keang keat at kopitiam..tats all for today..bye!!

HaPPY DaY

aT LaST i HaVe a DaY WiTHouT STReSS n PReSSuRe WHiCH iS ToDaY..Coz No NiD To C THe STuPiD PReFeCTS n aLSo TaT "TeaCHeR"..THeY aLWiZ CaTCh MY HaiR DuNNo FoR WaT..i DuN TiNK TaT iTS LoNG...MaYBe THeY R JuZ JeaLouS CoZ THeiR HaiR LuKZ LiKe MY GRaNDFaTHeR..ToDaY ReaLLy HaVe a GReaT DaY WiF FReD, BLaCK CHiCK, aND aNDY..ToDaY PLaY DoTa FiRST TiMe C BLaCK CHiCK SCoLd PeoPLe..VeRy FuNNy LeR..TaTS aLL FoR NoW..BYe